W - Who Told You?

This month has been an emotional roller coaster. It's been heavy and stressful to watch my husband battle cancer and get through cancer treatments. It's always on my mind and it's a constant prayer for him to get through this. The Lord has truly held me up and I've seen His healing hand on Babe (he's doing great by the way!).

A few weeks ago I received a text from my cousin letting me know that her brother had passed away and sadly, tragically took his own life. I was shocked, sad and heartbroken for his family. I cried so much for his wife and children. The thing that hit me so hard was the utter hopelessness he must have felt. To see no way out, none. I can only imagine the pain. 

I've heard people who have attempted suicide say that it's not that they want to be dead, they just don't want to live any more. This life has nothing to offer anymore, no joy, nothing sounds good anymore. It's makes sense to me, it's just beyond sad.

There's a comedian I like who spoke of his own cousin taking his life. He said there were thousands of people at his cousins memorial service and all he could think of was, "Who told you no one cared? Who told you that you didn't matter? Who told you that?!"  I had seen this interview just days before I got the news of my cousin and it had hit me so hard, it's such a profound thought. That's how I feel about my cousin. I cried, "Who lied to you?! Who said no one cares?! Who told you that?!"

I went through the guilt of not reaching out more and realized how much more his wife and children must feel that. My heart just aches for all of them. He was a good guy, he was fun and funny, could tell a good story and make everyone laugh, and he was well loved. 

We had reconnected in 2020 and being the family operator that I am, I gathered everyone I could at my house and we all celebrated his 50th birthday together. We all got see him and hang out and catch up with him - meet his wife and daughter. It was so great. I'm so happy I now have those memories of him.  

I know that life is hard and we all go through some serious hard times.  We hear this all the time to reach out to someone when you're down. There is always ONE person, even a stranger, who will listen. If you're alone, know that you're truly not. Jesus promised, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." Call to Him. If you know me personally, call me! I don't care what time it is. 

The lesson: We don't have to go it alone, get Jesus on the phone, here's His number:  Jer.33:3 

"Call to me and I will answer you, and show you great and  mighty things which you do not know." 


Pouring hope, 

Nen♡

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  1. LisaApril 26, 2025 at 4:57 PM

    I am so sorry about your cousin. I'm so glad you have happy memories. When I was a high school student, I remember a Sunday School teacher sharing God's phone number with us . . .I had it written in my Bible!

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    1. NenApril 26, 2025 at 9:57 PM

      Thank you Lisa. And
      what a wonderful memory of your Sunday school teacher.

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